This study, employing the interpretative phenomenological approach,
explored the adolescents‟ experience of undergoing chemotherapy. Five (5) coresearchers were carefully chosen based on a present criteria set upon by the
researcher and are as follows: 1) They are willing to articulate, share, participate,
and describe their lived experiences, 2) They have undergone at least the second
chemotherapy sessions, either as an in-patient or out patient, as one of their
treatment modality for their cancer regardless of its type and severity. And 3) that
they are adolescents between 12-18 years of age. Moreover, the co-researchers
were carefully chosen to ensure that the three (3) main phases of chemotherapy
(Induction, Consolidation & Maintenance) is equally represented such that one (1)
is undergoing the induction phase, another is on the consolidation phase, two (2)
are in the maintenance phase while one (1) had just recently finished the
treatment. Additionally, two (2) of them was diagnosed with leukemia, another
two (2) with lymphoma and one (1) with bone cancer, the only one that undergo
chemotherapy as an in-patient while the rest as an out-patient. Furthermore, of the
five (5) co-researchers, four (4) were male while one was (female).
The experiences of the co-researchers were subsequently gathered and
enriched via the following methods: 1) Interview (Pakikipagusap), 2) Storytelling
(Pakikipagkwentuhan), 3) Participant Observation (Pakikipamuhay), 4) Art
(Sining) and 5) Group Discussion. Subsequently, three (3) levels of reflective
analysis was done on the narratives of the co-researchers following the process
specifically developed by the researcher, inspired by the phenomenological
methods of Max van Manen and Colaizzi. Through the process of reflective
analysis, three (3) themes and seven (7) subthemes were drawn and are as follows
a) I am Normal More than Special (Normal na Bata, Hindi Kakaiba) with three
(3) subthemes namely: (a.1) Behind the Mask: Who am I Now? (Sa Likod ng
Takip, Sino na Ako?) (a.2) Forbidden but not Forgotten (Pinagbawalan pero di
Kinalimutan) and (a.3) New Me: Metamorphosis of Self (Bagong Anyo: Sarili’y
Pabago-bago); (B) Complex Chemo: Welcome to My Reality (Chemo
Komplikado, Yan ang Totoo) with three (3) subthemes which are: (b.1) Good
News and Bad News: The Amazing Twins, (Mabuti at Masamang Balita: Laging
Magkasama), (b.2) Needle Here, Needle There, Poke Me Everywhere (Tusok
Dito, Tusok Doon, Tusok Panapanahon) and (b.3) Chemo Condo: Are You In or
Out (Parang Nasa Condo Pagnagchechemo) and (c) F4 (family, faith, friends and
future): Maintains My Core. (Pamilya, Paniniwala, Kaibigan at Kinabukasan: Tagapangalaga ng Katinuan). These themes represent the constant and dynamic
interaction of the co-researchers self as it maintains a feeling of normality (a)
while undergoing the intricacies and complexity of the chemotherapy experience
(b) and the things that serves as their source of the coping and motivation to move
on (c).
Further reflective analysis of the themes and subthemes reveals the
essence of the phenomenon under investigation and is epitomized in the eidetic
insight that: undergoing chemotherapy in the eyes of an adolescent is analogous to
a tree journeying through the four seasons of change, eternally struggling to
adjust, adapt, abide and assimilate the alterations brought about by the seasons,
chemotherapy, while trying to maintain a normal sense of self. It is a phenomenon
of conflict, of constant struggle between meeting the desire of normalcy and
autonomy of the adolescents to letting oneself succumb to the dictum and
demands of chemotherapy. This essence is further embodied in the Symbolic
Representation entitled “Normalcy Amidst the Seasons of Change”.
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